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Sunday Meditation: Clearing a Block

There’s something that I’ve wanted in my life for quite a while and haven’t gotten. I’ve taken both practical and magical steps for it, and yet I’ve had no results. In fact, I’ve had tantalizing almost-results, and I’ve done things that seemed guaranteed to succeed, so at this point, I’m sure there’s some kind of psychic block, although I don’t know what it is.

This is something that happens to a lot of people. There’s something that you want, something real-world and attainable; a job, a house, a relationship, a baby, that somehow you haven’t been able to get. Or there’s something you don’t want, some persistent pattern, that you haven’t been able to get rid of. If you know it’s something possible, and you’ve taken steps, and you’ve reached out for help with those steps, and you’re still not there, then it might be a psychic block. This meditation is designed to help clear such a block.

Ground and center.

You are in a place outdoors, and you are comfortable and at ease. You are going to go on a journey. Perhaps you can begin from the beautiful area behind your meditation cottage, and choose a path leading from there.

Begin to walk on the path. The way is pleasant and relaxed. Your feet naturally find the easiest steps on the road. The air is soft around you.

Gradually the way becomes difficult. From time to time, you must watch your footing, and you begin to notice a feeling of effort and strain in your body, but it’s fine, it’s within your capabilities. It’s like light exercise, and you are happy to continue.

Notice what the path looks like. Observe its colors and shapes. Listen for sounds. What is this path like?

Now you come to a barrier in your path. Stop and observe this barrier. What is it made of? How big is it? What does it feel like to be blocked in this way? Before trying to change anything about this barrier, simply observe it, and meditate on the experience of encountering it.

Now start removing the barrier. You can use any means you like, and you can get help in any way you choose. You are in your own meditation space, and so you do not have to conform to any normal rules. Perhaps the barrier crumbles easily, perhaps it is stubborn and difficult to remove. Continue the process of removal.

With the barrier removed, you can get to the other side. What is it like there? Enjoy your time on the other side before returning home.

Some people may find that they cannot remove the barrier. That’s okay. Your work was effective and helpful, and there’s more work to do. You can repeat this meditation to finish the work another time. Feel good about the progress you made.

You should make time to return to this path and this journey another time, to walk past the remnants of the barrier and enjoy the path you’ve cleared.

Sunday Meditation: The Glowing Pearl

This is another expanded grounding and centering meditation. There is a section at the end for extending it outward for a group meditation. If you were working in a group, one person would read aloud (or speak from memory).

Begin by being aware of your breathing, and as you breathe deeply, in and out, with long, cleansing breaths, allow yourself to feel the movement of breath in your body.

As you breathe, notice the breath moving through your human body. Become aware that you have a body, that you are a human being and of the Earth.

You are also a being of Spirit. Notice your center, the place where spirit resides in your body. It is round and glowing with the light of your spirit. Notice the beauty of its shimmering glow. It is iridescent white, like a pearl.

Feel the glow extend through your body. With each breath, the glow fills you more deeply. The glow extends to the tips of your fingers and toes, to the top of your head and the ends of your hair, and at the core of it remains the bright pearl of your center, shimmering and shining, bathing you in sacredness and peace.

In your life, there are challenges, blocks, hardships. Notice again that your center is a pearl, and see the pearl forming its beautiful shell around those challenges, making them beautiful and perfect. Just as an oyster turns its irritations into pearls, so your pearl center can transform your problems into precious gems.

Allow yourself simply to bask in the light.

(For a group)

Now notice you are in a circle of such glows. It is a beautiful necklace of pearls, bound together in a strand, united and individual, and glowing as one.

Hiding in Plain Sight

So, the other day I was talking about public Paganism and its effect on the tenor of Paganism in general. Gus diZerega worries that an ecstatic religion is becoming staid in the process of being made palatable for a rapidly growing and increasingly public Pagan populace.

I think there is a natural balance that any religious population will achieve. I don’t know what the percentages are, but I think they’re more-or-less static, whether you’re Pagan or Christian or Hindu. As I suggested the other day, the Neopagan movement front-loaded the esoteric, mystery- or ecstacy- oriented folks. But in terms of what people want and need from religion in their lives, I think we were over-represented. As our population grows, the portion that is exoteric and casual about religion will grow faster than the mystical, ecstatic, and intensely devoted. That’s representative of how people are.

In Traditional Wicca, we sometimes call ourselves the Hidden Children of the Goddess. At one time, we were hidden primarily by being scarce. To find us, you had to figure out that there was such a thing as Wicca, and figure out a contact point. It could be maddeningly difficult, but many Traditional Wiccans believe that this hurdle brings those to us who were meant to be among us, while screening out many of the rest.

Today, we are hidden by an exoteric Pagan community and a publishing boom. You have to figure out that there’s more to Wicca than the superficial, the bland, and the anything-goes. There are many, many points of contact, and most of them are bullshit. You have to try again and again, and not be daunted by the fakes and flakes and failures. You might have to attend a public ritual where the periodic table is recited, and still keep seeking.

Somehow, this is affirmative of the Mystery nature of Wicca. The inner traditions cannot grow past a certain point, because growth denatures them. But that very fact keeps the Mystery alive; hidden, alive, and available for those who know to seek it.

Public Paganism and a Watered-Down Approach

Gus diZerega writes about a public Pagan Solstice ceremony he was distressed by. He was disturbed by a sermon in the middle of the ceremony, by the political content of that sermon, and by a guided visualization that was entirely scientific, with no mythic or spiritual content. These things (sermons, politics, science), he points out, can be good, but are at odds with the purpose of Pagan ritual:

Changes like these when repeated and institutionalized are how a religion with a new focus is gradually tamed, and brought into harmony with the status quo. If sermons become a component of Pagan ceremonies, participants will increasingly be called upon to become passive vessels filled by whatever words the preaching Priest or Priestess feels called upon to say. If the altered awareness of trance and ecstasy is replaced with hypnotic introductions to scientific orthodoxy, we end up being more dependent on the competence of those giving the sermons and less on the Gods.

As a spiritual community we need to be very careful. Popular interest in our practice is greater now than ever before. We are becoming respectable. But those newly interested in us interpret what we do from within their own framework, and it is natural and appropriate for us to seek points of common understanding within their framework to explain our ways. Yet if we go too far along this path we lose sight of where we began.

Jason was impressed by Gus’s essay, and asks:

I wonder if any of my readers have experienced similar public rituals? Do you think there is a danger that modern Pagans are watering-down (or altering) practice to make it more palatable to a mainstream audience? If so, what should our reaction be?

I have certainly attended watered-down ceremonies, and ceremonies that didn’t feel very Pagan, although not quite like what Gus describes. However, I am not as concerned as Gus.

It is true, and disheartening to me, that part of the Pagan community is moving in a direction that is more socially mainstream, and less of a true alternative. A new set of window dressing on the same old same old. Pagans who are anti-nudity. Pagans who are anti-feminist. Pagans who find dancing around bonfires to be in poor taste.

Many of those Pagans are newer to the community. Not that it’s a newbie syndrome or anything like that. Rather, they are representative of the rapid growth that Gus notes. People now tend to enter into Paganism quickly. They don’t often go through a long period of seeking, because they get their needs met readily through books and the Internet. As a result, they don’t necessarily see the need for inner change. Paganism can be fit into one’s existing lifestyle and values, rather than questioning and changing those values in response to one’s Paganism.

And again, disheartening. Distressing even. But also inevitable, and not actually endangering to the core of Paganism. Watering-down is the bridegroom of public accessibility. But there is still the other Paganism, and people still seek it.

What happened with this movement is the esoteric preceded the exoteric. Oooh, big words. What I mean is, the secret societies, the Mysteries, and the spiritually transformative experiences were the bulk and focus of Neo-Pagan religion when it began. It is only in the last ten years that the exoteric; the outer, the public part of Paganism, has really taken over the perception of the nature of the beast, so that people can think the public stuff is Paganism. While there’s a certain synergism to that (the more people think it, the more the Paganism they practice will reflect that, and the more likely the next person will have the same perception), it isn’t completely a self-fulfilling prophecy. It is still not all that difficult to find out that there’s profound esoteric religion in there, both ecstatic and disciplined, and with no diluting agents anywhere in sight.

Over the years, I have realized that my path is not at all threatened by this other path, the Beltane-and-Samhain casualness, the “Christian Wicca” (huh?), the lecture-about-ritual in place of ritual. All of these have their place. There are people whose needs are met by these things. And those people will never replace the rest of us, who cannot be satisfied by a little bit of religion, who don’t want to hear about the Gods, only to be with Them and feel Them and know Them. Ultimately, we’re running parallel paths.

And that’s okay.

Merry Christmas

No trivia today. Go be with your families.

By the way, Sun came back. Phew.

Sunday Meditation: Accepting Your Own Meditation Style

It is, perhaps, harder to be at peace with your spiritual self than it is to be at peace with yourself overall. (Unless you’re an atheist. I figure “I don’t do that” can be a pretty peaceful state.) By “at peace,” I don’t mean “self-righteous;” to be aggressive and rigid about your path is, I think, a sign of lack of peace.

Because prayer, meditation, and worship have profound goals, we may judge how we do those things harshly, and we may fantasize about doing them more or better or different. And we may be mad at ourselves, or critical of ourselves, when we don’t measure up to this fantasy.

I have never been someone who meditates often or does a lot of private worship. That’s a sucky thing to admit, being a Famous Wiccan Writer® and all, but it’s true. I’m other-directed. I worship best when there are other people around, and Wicca, to me, happens in a circle with other Wiccans.

Now, in my life, I’ve gone through phases about this. I used to be really mad at myself and do the New Year’s Resolution trip about how I was going to meditate every day from now on, just like I would resolve to, I dunno, be more organized or disciplined or exercise or diet or any of the thousand things we think we can fix by resolving. ‘Cause that always works.

And then I recognized that I was externally motivated. I do things when there’s someone expecting me to do it. I clean house when company’s coming. When I plan solitary circles, I cancel if I’m exhausted. When I plan group circles, I suck it up because people are coming over expecting a circle. So in phase two I stopped being mad, but was still kind of ashamed. I should be self-motivated. It would be better if I did more stuff on my own. And I would be really jealous and admiring of people I knew who did have that self-directed spirituality.

Phase three was figuring out that this is who I am, and finding a way to come to peace with it. Knowing that a home altar needs to be really visible or I’d forget about it, I moved mine around several times until I found the right spot. I let go of thoughts about how long it’s been since I meditated, and simply be in this meditation, right now.

Finally, I am in phase four, and truly at peace with it. So much at peace that I don’t mind telling you these things that I used to consider embarrassing. Religion, to me, is mostly about community, and the deep spiritual things that happen, the trances, the visions, the exaltation, tend to happen for me when there is a community around me. And that’s not inferior to doing those things alone. Whatever works.

Friday, as I was getting ready for work, I noticed my Kali altar and noticed I wanted to pray. Okay, it’s been a while. And I didn’t beat myself up. I just lit some incense, offering first the flame, then the incense. I stood at the altar. I chanted “Om Kali Kalike Kalyai Namah Namostute Om” once. Just once. Not 108 times. I made darshan (eye contact with the idol). I took another breath. That was it.

I felt…wonderful. Enriched by the experience. Centered. And I know that if I sat for 108 chants with my mala, that would be powerful in a different way. And that’s okay too.

Happy Winter Solstice, Everyone!

Let’s hope, y’know, the sun comes back.

That’d be nice.

Nativities, Pagan displays, and establishment

There’s a really interesting discussion going on at Alas, a blog on the subject of nativity scenes on government property. The post is a couple of days old but the comments remain lively.

The Wild Hunt has also been covering this issue, and while I have a lot to say, I have decided to forgive myself for not having the time for a comprehensive post. Just go visit these other folks.

Sunday Meditation: Finding Hope

We are approaching the darkest night of the year. Winter Solstice is, paradoxically, a festival of hope, of light, and of birth.

The Wiccan Wheel of the Year is replete with these paradoxes; in light we see darkness, in cold we see warmth. But how do we see hope and renewal when light is gone, and a chilly darkness pervades the world?

Pagan faith is rooted in reality. While indeed, there have always been, and still are, great Pagan mystics and thinkers, there is also a strain of earthiness that is always a part of who and what we are. We have faith that the sun will rise, in great part, because it has always been known to rise. Because our theology and our mythos don’t defy nature, we can draw comfort from the natural world.

Ground and center.

See yourself in total darkness. You are surrounded by a palpable and endless dark. Everything is void, everything is black.

Now a light begins to dawn. Perhaps it looks like a sunrise to you, or perhaps you experience the light as coming from within.

Notice the growing light. It is warm and golden.

As the light grows, you find yourself remembering that light always returns. The sun rises each morning, and you remember many bright and shining days. The spring comes each year, and you remember many golden Aprils and Mays.

Fill yourself with returning light, and allow yourself to know that this light always returns to you. Allow yourself to know that your sorrows have always been followed, sooner or later, by laughter. Recall new things born into your life when you thought you were alone and lost. Recall being healed. Recall being awakened. Recall hope.

Fill yourself with returning light, and notice the feeling of gratitude. The light will always return, and you can be grateful for it. The earth will continue to turn, and you can be grateful for it.

Now you are fully in the light. The sun is up. Your body glows with light. Notice the feeling of hope and optimism. Enjoy it.

The True Diversity of American Religion

Jason quotes Philocrites about Mitt Romney’s “I am a Mormon but Don’t Hold it Against Me” speech.

By trying to define “faith” as conservative traditionalism and “pluralism” as a name for monotheistic traditionalism, Romney misrepresented the true diversity of American religion, explicitly dismissed Americans who don’t identify with a religious tradition, and painted the traditions he did mention in a way that celebrates their most traditionalist wings and ignores almost all of their visions for the commonweal. What a disappointment.

I agree with everything except the “what a disappointment” part. What the flock were you expecting, tolerance? On the Right?

I think not.